So I have 1001 days left of being a kid, and then it's all over, having someone to look over you, or some you can blame all your problems on, and be pissed of at when you have to ask before you go out of the house, and asks you what are you were are you going, just incase you get lost or in a car ascend even if your parent don't care about you half as much as they should, and trust me i'm know stranger to abandonment and pain, but i'm just so sad that i've been trying so hard to get my parent out of my life, so i could have my freedom like when i started cleaning my room and launder and buying my own stuff because i wonted to fell responsible  when i was 10, and when i started being vegetarian at 11 and started cooked most all of my food, and stared caring more about saving gas, and money then hanging out with my friend, and having fun, that i just wonted to be "free" and happy, like they say high school will be the worst and best times of your life, but i've only seen the worst! but it sucks friend are lost, hearts are broken beyond repair, and the worsted part is you feel like your all along, and you usually are :( cuz every only has so much time, and if you a "needy teen" as my mom would put it, then you'll just have to suck it up, all i ever wonted was just for someone to tack the time to get to now me, it would make all the difference, oh back then it was fun, to play the responsible grown up  11 years old it was all so fun if only i could tell myself, but i can't. so i'm gonna try to help future self, DON'T TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED!!! BECAUSE !NOTHING! LAST FOREVER
so life each moment like your last love life and just don't give a shit about the little stuff, it fucking docent mater! forget about it! just do what makes you happy do what you love <3 and have a good day